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I encourage you to read the daily passage in context. You can find it here.
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I encourage you to read the daily passage in context. You can find it here.
Lord willing and the creek don’t rise, I’ll be living in a new home by the time you read this. As of right now, though, I live in an apartment. Today is Monday, and I am writing this for you to read next Monday, which is today, because you’re reading it right now. Wibbly wobbly, right?
See, I’ll be a little bit busy this weekend moving from our apartment of three years to our new house, and I don’t think I’ll get around to writing a post during all that, especially since I don’t know if we’ll have the internet up and running by then. So, hello from the past! Timey wimey!
I am really really excited about moving. We intended to live in an apartment for a year, two years max. Now, after three years, we’re finally going to have a yard again! We’ll be able to invite people over for dinner and not be cramped. We’ll be able to paint walls, and change floors, and move things around and, plant vegetables, and start fires (in a contained location for the purpose of smores, of course), and, oh! I’m so excited!!
But for now, while I’m writing this, I am still living in an apartment.
For four more days. Sigh.
Although I am incredibly anxious to have a yard again, I have to admit, I am feeling a little bit nostalgic. We’ve had three good years here, and today, I heard this song by Trace Adkins on the radio. It kind of got to me, like music often does. I remember being a teenager and wanting so badly to be an adult. I wish I had just slowed down, taken some of my mother’s advice, and enjoyed being a teen. Later, I wanted more than anything to be married. Then, to have kids and be a stay at home mom. Now, to move to a house that we plan to grow old in. The thing is, there will always be a next step. Always something else to strive for. I don’t want to always be on the look out for the next step. I want to enjoy life right now. Soak in the moments, smell the roses, all that jazz.
Philippians 4:4-13
4 Rejoice in the Lord always. I will say it again: Rejoice! 5 Let your gentleness be evident to all. The Lord is near. 6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding,will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. 9 Whatever you have learned or received or heard from me, or seen in me—put it into practice. And the God of peace will be with you.
10 I rejoiced greatly in the Lord that at last you renewed your concern for me.Indeed, you were concerned, but you had no opportunity to show it. 11 I am not saying this because I am in need, for I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. 12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength.
I need to rejoice always. Not rejoice later when I’m in a house. Not rejoice later when I have a yard. But rejoice always. I need to rejoice even in my apartment. I need to be gentle. I need to pray, and petition, and be thankful. I need to refuse anxiousness and let the peace of God guard my heart and mind. So, even in the midst of moving and waiting and messy, I need to give a squeeze nice and slow, take a deep breath, and let it go. (Any other Daniel Tiger fans out there?) The person described in verses 4-7 would not be anxious to get out of here. She would calm down and rejoice in the Lord for the good times now past. I am going to take verse 8’s advice and focus on some positives.
10 Awesome Things That Have Happened While Living in an Apartment
1. My first pregnancy was here. It was a long, beautiful, trying, wonderful 9 months!
2. This is where we brought Amelia home after she was born. I’ll never forget the joy I felt standing in my living room here surrounded by family. The seams of the apartment nearly burst with all the love that was in here.
3. My hubby and I have worked through many, many, many issues in our marriage here. We’ve grown in patience, in kindness, in joy. We’ve become more open with each other, and our communication has improved tenfold. I think we’ve come a long way in three years.
4. Living here without the support I had back home forced me to face some things in myself that I had been avoiding. I learned to lean on God more fully and draw my strength and joy from Him.
5. I learned how to cook here. I knew some basic things, like macaroni and cheese or calling Pizza Hut, and I had tried a little bit during our first year of marriage, but now I can comfortably make something different for dinner every night, and it’s healthy, mostly. Also, I can bake now. Whoa.
6. Amelia’s first steps, first words, first peepee on the potty, I could go on, and on, and on. The first year and a half of her life has been here, and it’s been amazing.
7. Getting to know my neighbors. Although apartment life means our neighbors change often, it also puts more urgency in the friendship. We might only know you for a year, so I need to tell you about Jesus.
8. We brought home our second kitty, Sadie, to this apartment. We’ve had our first kitty, Jo, for almost four years, and we’ve had Sadie now for almost two years.
9. Our family has grown from 2 adults and a kitty, to 2 adults, 2 kitties, 1 toddler, and 2 babies in heaven.
10. I discovered that I actually can grow plants.
10 Things I’ll Miss About Apartment Life
1. When things break, somebody else fixes it.
2. Somebody else does the lawn care.
3. Close proximity to neighbors. I love getting to know who I’m living near.
4. The pool. There’s very little chance we’ll ever have anything bigger than a kiddie pool in our backyard. The pool here is big, and awesome, and, most importantly, maintained by someone else.
5. Small utility bills.
6. The shared patio. Sitting outside almost guarantees that someone to talk to will stop by.
7. The downsizing. The small size of the apartment forced me to figure out which things I really really wanted and to get rid of the rest.
8. The gym. Sure, I only stepped foot in there once, but still. I could have used it any time I wanted–if I had wanted.
9. The office ladies. They’re really nice.
10. The events. We’ve had Easter egg hunts, and pool parties, and various other events to build a sense of community.
Yes, I’ll miss this place. It has been a very good three years.
Let’s look at the last few verses again.
12 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. 13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength.
Content whatever the circumstances. Whether apartment or house. Whether 10 kids or three. Whether SAHM or working. Whether 25 years old or 100. The Lord is the source of my strength in every situation.
Ends of the earth, here I come! (eventually)
In October 2014, I attended MOMcon in Kentucky. It’s this wonderful time for MOPs, Mothers of Preschoolers, to get together and encourage each other. The weekend was filled with tons of relaxation, excellent speakers, a bit of dancing (MOMprom rules!), fantastic worship, lots of food (a must when mommies get together), and engaging workshops. It was truly a refreshing weekend. I encourage anyone in MOPs to attend if at all possible. It’s incredible. But enough about the weekend! Back to Madagascar!
One of the workshops I attended focused on MOPS International. I went to this workshop at crazy o’clock on Friday morning with a good friend who is interested in overseas missions. I was there to support my friend; I was not interested at all in the mission field outside of my own Jerusalem. It’s great that other people go all over and share Jesus but I’m not a traveling kind of person. Not me, Lord. By the way, it may not particularly be a good idea to tell God what He can and can’t do with you. Every time I try it, life ends up drastically different from what I imagined! Anyways, while we sat in the chairs and listened to the speaker talk about various countries with new MOPs groups, particularly Madagascar, I knew God was calling me to do what I had told Him I didn’t want to do: travel. The Lord was calling me further than my Jerusalem, further than my Judea. He was calling me to the ends of the earth! Okay, so the world really doesn’t have ends but if it did, Madagascar would be there!
I spent a considerable amount of time in prayer after this workshop. I knew in the workshop that I was going next summer but I wanted to make sure God was sure that He wanted to send me. So I prayed. By the end of all this praying, I felt a little bit like Moses saying “Who am I, that I should go to Madagascar, and that I should tell the moms there of your love and grace?” Check this out in Exodus 3:
7 The Lord said, “I have surely seen the affliction of My people who are in Egypt, and have given heed to their cry because of their taskmasters, for I am aware of their sufferings.8 So I have come down to deliver them from the power of the Egyptians, and to bring them up from that land to a good and spacious land, to a land flowing with milk and honey, to the place of the Canaanite and the Hittite and the Amorite and the Perizzite and the Hivite and the Jebusite. 9 Now, behold, the cry of the sons of Israel has come to Me; furthermore, I have seen the oppression with which the Egyptians are oppressing them.
10 Therefore, come now, and I will send you to Pharaoh, so that you may bring My people, the sons of Israel, out of Egypt.” 11 But Moses said to God, “Who am I, that I should go to Pharaoh, and that I should bring the sons of Israel out of Egypt?” 12 And He said, “Certainly I will be with you, and this shall be the sign to you that it is I who have sent you: when you have brought the people out of Egypt, you shall worship God at this mountain.”
13 Then Moses said to God, “Behold, I am going to the sons of Israel, and I will say to them, ‘The God of your fathers has sent me to you.’ Now they may say to me, ‘What is His name?’ What shall I say to them?” 14 God said to Moses, “I AM WHO I AM”; and He said, “Thus you shall say to the sons of Israel, ‘I AM has sent me to you.’”
A couple of things I noticed here.
First, God noticed the affliction of the people then He called Moses. He didn’t say “Moses needs some work to do for my kingdom so I’m going to use him for….. let’s see…. oh I know! To bring my people out of slavery! Perfect. That’ll make him feel useful.” Nope. What He said was “I see my people hurting. I’m going to deliver them. Moses, go to Pharaoh.” A) God is doing the delivering, not Moses. B) God is doing this for all His people, not just Moses.
God is saving the moms in Madagascar. God is spreading His truth there. God is doing the work and I’m going to be a tool that He uses. Although I am sure this trip will be life changing for me, I am going to there to serve, to be a vessel for the Lord. God is calling me to Madagascar for the benefit of Madagascar, not the benefit of Aly just like He called Moses for the benefit of Israel, not the benefit of Moses. I’m pretty sure Moses learned a lesson or two along the way but the end goal was getting the Israelite people out of Egypt and into the Promised Land. And that’s exactly what God did.
Second, God doesn’t get frustrated at Moses for questioning at first. It’s not until chapter 4 when Moses starts making excuses rather than simply asking questions that “the anger of the LORD burned against Moses.” He questioned and questioned and questioned and questioned and then God got angry. I think it’s okay to question some but I also think we can easily use questioning as excuses like Moses did. By the end of this exchange between God and Moses, I can almost hear Moses whining “pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeease, Lord, I don’t speak good! Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeease send someone else! Please pretty please with a cherry on top send someone else!?” He was making excuses to not obey.
I felt certain from the moment the workshop speaker mentioned Madagascar that God was telling me to go. I kept thinking “when” rather than “if” the entire time. Even with all that certainty, though, I still needed some confirmation. I needed to make sure I wasn’t being a crazy lady. I questioned. But God affirmed what I had heard from Him that morning and I took it on faith from that moment on. I still have passing doubts about my enough-ness for something this big, something this important. Then I remember that I AM is the one sending me. The King of kings has my back, ya’ll. I want to question so that all doubts are erased not so that I can find a reason to not go. Please pray with me that that desire stays strong.
Back to the story. I prayed for a good amount of time Friday morning and when I was absolutely certain, I realized I needed to talk to my husband about this. It kind of affects him and our year old daughter some. You know, a little bit. So I called him, expecting to have to convince him that me going across the world for two weeks while he stays in the states and takes care of our kid without me is a good idea. I didn’t have to convince him though. He said okay. He didn’t question my sanity. He didn’t tell me no. He just said okay. He was on board with whatever God had planned for us. So I met with people, gathered contact information, connected on Facebook with Domoina, who you will certainly hear about more later, and started sending emails to anyone I thought might listen.
Ends of the earth, here I come!